Monday, December 12, 2011

It's true

Pernah dengar orang bilang dugaan orang bertunang ni lain dari bercinta? mulanya aku nda percaya. tapi lepas 1 bulan bertunang, I can't believe it's true. panas. perasaan aku cepat panas. ya Allah..aku memohon Kau berikan kami ketenangan. beri kami kekuatan. kalau memang dia jodohku, Kau bantulah kami lalui tempoh pertunangan ni. dan aku berharap biarlah dia jodohku. amin.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Things women hate : boyfriends, please take note.

1. Complimenting other women. Seriously, we hate it.
2. Talking about your exes constantly. and yes, we hate to hear about your stories with other women you dated.
3. Comparing us to other women. GTH.
4. Telling us how much you like women who love sports, who like this and that, who do this and that, who have this and that. what are you waiting for? go find one.
5. Forcing us to do things we don't like/we can't.
6. Treating us like maid.
7. Selfish. all you think about is yourself. it's all about you, you, you and you.
8. Keeping things that we NEED to know. don't let us find out, or you're dead.
9. Ignoring us. Hello, we need your attention. if you can't give it, leave.
10. Don't ever say "if that guy cheats on his girlfriend, he must be crazy" when you see a hottie with his boyfriend. offending. that makes us think that we are not your type, that you can cheat on us because we are not as hot as her.

November!

wow..lama nda update blog. =D my fav month is here and will end in 12 days. another 43 days before we enter 2012. err..2012? kiamat? ahahaha harap2 tidak lah ok. saya belum kahwin laaa..=P oh, saya sudah tukar status. sekarang sudah jadi tunang orang. sila jangan kacau. haha iman saya nda berapa kuat ni. lol. main2 ja. =) no idea what to blog. ok lah. gdnite!

Thursday, October 6, 2011

45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
...4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥!

Sunday, August 14, 2011

boleh masuk ICU!


Malam penuh debaran betul bila menonton perlawanan badminton antara Datuk Lee Chong Wei dengan Lin Dan. haiiihhh..kalah lagi. 1st set, LCW mendahului 22-20. tapi 2nd set kalah 14-21. rubber set memang sengit habis..cuma kelalaian LCW membuatkan Lin Dan menang World Badminton Championships 2011. ='( so LCW kalah 21-23. dua kelemahan LCW yang biasa kita nampak kan, either dia selalu langgar net, atau sengaja biar bola tu dengan harapan out. tidak apa. bukan rezeki. cuba lagi lain kali. tapi aku rasa LCW ni ada takut sikit sama Lin Dan. hehe nervous dia kalau jumpa Lin Dan. nampak betul. apa pun you're still no.1 world champion & in our heart as well, Datuk! congratulations! It was a superb game!

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Mimpi? sejauh mana kebenarannya?


Tidak pernah aku mimpi pelik begitu banyak sekaligus. so I googled (aku ada tebiat percaya pada mimpi sebab kebanyakan mimpi aku jadi kenyataan atau betul-betul petanda sesuatu akan jadi). aku jumpa lah beberapa website pasal tafsir mimpi. TAFSIR MIMPI. <-- click here.

Mimpi pertama aku semalam, aku bertunang awal dari yang ditetapkan. yang peliknya, majlis pertunangan tu macam majlis pernikahan. siap ada tok kadi lagi. berlansung dalam dewan yang besar, aku nda pasti di mana. macam istana pun ada. lebih lucu lagi aku duduk membelakang, bukan berdepan untuk disarungkan cincin. sekali tu..tiba-tiba tempat duduk aku bergerak. rupanya kami semua duduk atas tempat yang boleh bergerak ala-ala roller coaster. haha! dalam mimpi tu kan, kononya 'tunang' aku tu bikin surprise. memang surprised lah time tu, teriak-teriak kesukaan sebab best kan naik roller coaster. sekali rupanya tidak selamat itu 'roller coaster'. aku paling depan..aku paling first naik sampai paling atas tapi tiada sambungan roller coaster tu. terputus. yang lain selamat, aku nda pasti macam mana selamat. tapi aku memang terbang di langit sudah..nasib di bawah tu ada air tasik. aku jatuh lah pergi dalam tasik. haha! semua orang mencari aku. aku selamat. dalam hati memaki-maki mau saman itu 'theme park' bikin rosak majlis aku ja. sekali sebelum aku naik tu, nampak diorang terjumpa aku sudah. tapi masalahnya, itu bukan aku. itu bunian menyamar jadi aku. wahaha bertambah pelik mimpi aku di situ.

lepas tu nda lama diorang terjumpa aku. bunian tu pun tiba-tiba hilang, kedapatan sudah dia bukan aku kan. semua lega aku selamat. tapi tiba-tiba...tangan kiri aku putus. aku nda ingat kiri ka kanan. nampak macam kiri tapi macam kanan. pasal aku jatuh terhampas dari langit ke tasik tu, aku nda sedar tangan aku putus sudah. berdarah-darah lantai. 'tunang' aku tu terus hampa. sebab hilang sudah kan satu tangan.

sudah tu, tiba-tiba tangan aku muncul balik. pelik! tapi tangan kanan sakit. jadi memang aku rasa tangan kanan yang terputus tapi muncul balik. dalam fikiran aku mungkin tangan tu tidak putus, cuma hampir putus. dan aku nda tau kenapa, rambut aku macam keluar luka-luka. macam kudis pun ada. sebelum mimpi bertunang tu, aku ada mimpi potong rambut pendek. okay begini tafsiran mimpi-mimpi pelik aku di atas:-

1. Mimpi tangan putus - kalau tangan kiri, kehilangan ibu. tangan kanan, kehilangan bapa.
2. Mimpi kepala luka - beroleh keuntungan.
3. Mimpi potong rambut - ada antara ahli keluarga ditimpa sakit/ berpisah. ada juga yang bilang ditinggalkan pasangan.

apa-apa pun, mimpi cuma mainan tidur. sejauh mana kebenaran, wallahualam. semoga dijauhi dari segala yang tidak baik. amin.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak!

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan Al-Mubarak everybody!! In exactly 18 more days we will celebrate Hari Raya Aidilfitri! =D Suasana dekat hari raya tidak sempurna kalau tiada pasang lagu raya, bunyi mercun, sibuk buat kuih raya di dapur, sibuk pasang langsir baru, kemas rumah, susun kuih, cuba baju raya. hmm how I miss doing all that.

Berbezanya suasana beraya sekarang. I used to make 3-4 baju kurung. now? kadang-kadang tiada, kadang-kadang sepasang, atau 2 pasang ja. ni tahun aku buat 2! kalau dulu, sibuk mau ikut beraya kehulur kehilir. kalau boleh sepanjang hari beraya di rumah orang ja nda mau balik rumah. mandi pun tidak bah. haha! sekarang? =) I rather stay at home and entertain orang2 yang bertandang ke rumah. how antisocial. hehe

Cakap pasal puasa ni kan, susah aku mau control pengambilan makanan aku. semuaaaaaa aku mau telan. maklumlah..puasa kan. =P Biasanya, hari-hari lain aku nda juga mencari kuih muih. tapi bila masuk bulan Ramadhan, atau hari-hari lain yang aku berpuasa sunat/qadha puasa, fuuhh..inilah yang aku paling cari. macam bukan berbuka puasa lah kalau tiada kuih muih. =P cerewet. I am. apa-apa pun, beli juadah apa pun, nda payah berabis. nanti tidak habis juga tu. pembaziran seja. anyway, selamat menjalankan ibadah puasa. =)

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

give me some good news!


I'm actively looking for a new job! it's not that I'm not thankful for having one..I just think I need to find a better job. many others are struggling to get a job..bukan senang cari kerja sekarang.

"rezeki ada dimana-mana"

our graduates, most of them, are too picky in finding a job. come on! whatever opportunity life gives you, just grab it! pernah dengar pepatah, susah-susah dahulu, senang-senang kemudian? I remembered my dad told me that his first salary was only RM1k. Now he's earning more than 10times his first salary. best best best! haha! aku mata duitan, diakui. I just loveeee $$$. the only thing that makes me happy, despite whatever mood I'm in, is M.O.N.E.Y. =) money isn't everything..I know. but for me, NOTHING you can buy without it. kalaulah duit tu boleh jatuh dari langit! =P


I just need to find a job that can give twice or thrice my salary now. I love my job but I hate the pay. I can't save, I can't help to pay bills (our monthly bills cost us about 700+ ; astro, electricity, landline+streamyx, water, mailbox. excluding two housing loans which cost us RM2k). I have RM2k outstanding education loan (PTPTN), I have a housing loan, and ASB loan. so altogether, my debt is about RM300k. habis gaji bayar hutang seja. haiyaaa..I'm financially unstable. Kalau parents aku tiada, I would be declared bankrupt ooo! omg omg. I'm this close of joining AKPK okay. haha! I'm serious. need to start budgeting & manage my money wisely. and I'm thinking of getting a part time job.

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Liverpool!

I know nothing about Liverpool other than its famous player, Steven Gerrard. hehe! but my beloved boyfriend menaja tiket penerbangan pulang balik & tiket bola, jadi aku pun dengan senang hati jugalah ikut. hehe thank you sayang!

July 14 kami berangkat pergi KL, seawal jam 6 pagi flight. sampai KL sentral around 10+, jumpa cousin sekejap then we went straight to Pavilion. ada Liverpool punya gallery. lepas check in di hotel Prescott Inn Medan Tuanku (highly recommended), terus pergi stadium Bukit Jalil. baru training, sudah ramai.


berbaris agak lama juga sebelum dibenarkan masuk dalam. training untuk pasukan Harimau Malaya bermula dalam pukul 5 macam tu. Liverpool punya dalam jam 7. first time masuk stadium Bukit Jalil. best!

July 15, berangkat pergi Genting. tiket bas habis masa kami sampai di kl sentral dalam jam 11.30am. paling awal punya bas pun jam 1. so kami ikut uncle teksi yang sungguh friendly. dia bawa kami pergi kedai batik lah, kedai jual jam2 & barang kemas lah, sama kedai jual gelas? haha. yes. gelas yang bila kita letak air sejuk lama akan sejuk. 1 gelas mau rm400 ooo...dalam semua kedai, tiada satu pun kami beli! haha kesian uncle tu susah2 bawa kami pergi sana. tapi sebenarnya memang dia ada 'collaboration' sama tauke kedai2 tu kali. kalau kami beli, dia juga dapat komisen! last sekali dia bawa pergi kedai coklat di Genting. =D we spent RM160 juga lah beli coklat2 mau bawa balik KK! sampai Genting pun mau jam 3.30, ramai orang arabbbbb. cuci mata sekejap tengok orang2 lawa & hensem. hehe. jumpa kawan2 sana then check in di First World hotel. lepas rehat2, dalam jam 5 kami turun bermain di Theme Park! first game we tried was Flying Coaster!


best juga, agak scary sebelum start, tapi sekejap ja nda lama ni game. you have to pay rm12 kalau nda silap mau naik ni. lain bayaran, tidak termasuk theme park punya bayaran. sepanjang kami 'terbang' tu, aku ketawaaa non stop. haha too excited kali. then we tried Pirate Ship! okay..awalnya nampak boringggg..sekali naik atas..ada orang tu cakap "gilaaa eh!!" haha! agak terbang juga nyawa sekejap lah especially bila naik atas, kaki pun sengaja angkat. so bila turun terasa meremang juga bulu roma lah.


lepas tu kami naik Space Shot! my second time! hehe. the first was in 2009. memang gila lah masa tu. betul2 nyawa tertinggal di atassss. tapi bila naik kali kedua..masih terasa takut sikit, tapi tidak nervous sudah macam masa first naik tu. hehe. macam tiadaaaa ja bila naik. haha!

jangan takut. tiada apa2 juga tu. masih hidup juga kami ni. =P Genting ni best..tapi yang nda best..makanan minum semuaaa mahal. mineral water botol kecil pun RM2.50. ish. the next day, kami balik KL naik bas. sampai KL, naik monorail balik hotel, checked in (Prescott Inn) then went to Bukit Jalil. hari yang dinantikan tibaaaaa...penuh juga lah stadium! kami duduk palinggg bawah. =D best best! biarpun tiada perasaan sebab bukan orang Liverpool tulen, tapi aku sokong Malaysia!!


Game bermula tepat jam 5.45 petang. sepanjang game tu, ada juga aku rasa mengantuk sikit sebab penattt..kurang tidur & lebih banyak berjalan. mengejar masa kebanyakannya. tapi penat tu belakang cerita. yang penting trip ni fun! tidak sangka juga Malaysia boleh kasi gol sampai 3. woah..berabis melompat & cheering untuk Malaysia masa tu. memang happening habis lah. stadium lagi penuh. =D apa2 pun, tahniah buat pasukan Malaysia. sungguh bangga dengan diorang.

cabaran terakhir lepas game...mau pulang naik LRT. errrr....sungguh ramaiii orang. siap kena bagi kuota berapa ramai yang boleh naik station untuk tunggu LRT. biarpun bersesak2 begitu, aku nda kisah pun. pengalaman tuuu..haha kalau akan pergi lagi tengok bola, aku nda kisah bersesak2 begitu. sebab best! aku cuma takut terjatuh ja masa bersesak2 gitu. kena pijak2. boleh mati oo gitu. huhu scary.

naik LRT berhimpit macam dalam tin sardin. ada abang tu cakap "kuah sardin warna merah, kita semua pakai merah macam kuah sardin". haha! sepanjang dalam LRT tu, macam2 lawak dorang buat. setiap station LRT berenti, bila orang turun ja dorang nyanyi lagu 'Liverpool..Liverpool". meriah meriah meriah.

overall, trip ke KL sempena tengok Liverpool memang enjoy..fun..sangat best. tapi penat. aku balik KK terus sakit. dekat seminggu juga lah sakit.haha! punya lemah. I had a reallllllllll good time. thank you yang berkenaan!

Sunday, July 3, 2011

I appreciate u

I rarely tell u that I really appreciate every single thing u do for me & for us. I am happy with u, no doubt. thanks for being u. I'm glad I met u, sayang. sometimes I can't believe I met someone like u. u fell from the sky. =)

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

too comfortable

both my younger brother & sister dapat rasa tinggal tempat orang. hidup berdikari. aku? haha! TIADAAA. merasa bercuti sendiri2 ada lah. selalu aku bercuti tanpa family (dengan cousins+kawan2). sempat merasa beberapa hari ja la independent. dorang merasa hidup bertahun2. sioknye..T_T mau juga rasa hidup tempat orang. dulu aku pernah mau immigrate to Perth lagi aa. haha! nasib bapa aku nda kasi. and I wanted to move to KL juga, kerja konon. tapi bila fikir2 balik, it's better if I just stay here. selesa sudah di tempat sendiri. kenapa perlu pindah? the reason why I wanted to move so bad was because I felt soo empty & I needed to get myself together. years after that, oppss..nope..months after I made my decision of moving to kl, I met someone. and he is definitely one good reason why I should stay.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

important!

other than my family members (including my crazzzzyyy cousins), these two people are considered my 'I-can't-live-without-you-if-you're-not-around-I'd-probably-be-dead'. wahahaha

my boyfriend, who is also my best friend, my other half, my captain, my coach, my hero, my everything! soon-to-be-roommate. =P insyaAllah kalau diizinkan Allah jodoh berpanjangan.amin.

my girlfriend, I've known her my whole life, my gossip girl, my PA, my event organiser, my counselor, also my other half. haha I can't be your roommate gf. tapi anda akan jadi pengapit saya! mesti. wajib. =)

sekiranya saya tidak contact anda berdua selama sehari, hidup saya tidak sempurna. I love you both...very much. xoxo

Monday, May 23, 2011

honeymoon!

I wanna go to Europe on my honeymoonnnnn! visit each place there..mau 10 tahun kumpul duit ni baru boleh pegi kalau gitu. haha currency tinggi T_T nda payah shopping. bawa backpack, tinggal tempat biasa2 seja, jalan kaki makan angin. best best.

sekarang 2011, so by 2021, aku sudah boleh menjelajah Europe lah ni. haha!

Sunday, May 22, 2011

"With love, comes anger. Anger leads to hatred. Hatred leads to destruction"


kadang2 kita nda sedar kita sakitkan hati orang. bukan senang mau ubat hati orang yg kita bagi sakit tu. cukup bersyukurlah kalau orang tu pemaaf & cepat lupa. kalau tidak? hmm

bukan tidak percaya, tapi biasalah..syaitan itu ada dimana2. sentiasa berbisik yg bukan2. ada seja yg mau kasi racun fikiran supaya berprasangka yang bukan2. kesannya? ....

mesti selalu baca ayat 3 Qul ni. moga dijauhi dari segala bisikan jin2 & syaitan laknatullah.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

tanpa anda?

"boleh saya hidup tanpa anda. tapi nda best"


iya.memang nda best. haha I've been telling you the same thing, over and over again. I can't afford to lose you..and I mean every single word. I can't imagine how my life would be without you. yes, I have my family & friends but with your existence, you complete me. =) thank you for everything, sayang.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

.

For every good reason there is to lie, there is a better reason to tell the truth.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

lepas kahwin

apa jadi sekeliling aku, dengan orang terdekat, keluarga dekat, bikin takut pula. shit happens. that's life.

1 sebab kenapa aku takut kahwin, instead of belum ready sebab career belum stabil & masih belum puas hidup bujang, is takut. banyak cakap lelaki berubah lepas kahwin. lain masa bercinta, lain masa lepas kahwin. i know, i shouldn't listen to all that. tapi itu kisah benar and banyak jadi. itu orang lain. bukan aku. aku tau. tapi masiiii takut. haha. berserah. itu seja yg perlu kita buat kan. benda tu kalau mau jadi, jadi juga. kun fayakun. it's written.

Friday, May 6, 2011

cinta pudar?

selalu terjadi sama married couples. why? they get bored because they see each other every day. bangun pagi muka dia. balik kerja muka dia. mau tidur muka dia. semuaaa ada dia. haha! begitu pandai bosan. hmm..

orang kadang2 lupa..bila makin lama bersama, makin membiar. bila terbiar, perasaan pudar. kenapa pudar?it's either si partner tu rasa nda kena sayang lagi, atau pasal dia nda tahan dibiar. itu dua ja penyebab. kawin berpuluh tahun pun kalau pandai jaga, tiada masalah bosan. =)

Saturday, April 23, 2011

bujang

kadang2 menjadi 'bujang' itu best, tapi aku rasa lebih best lah spend time dengan ehem2. and I have to admit that I really can't live without him. aww..

Monday, April 18, 2011

kau bikin panas!

and yes, I am freakin' mad right now. hairan, banyak kali kau bikin aku sakit hati, dari yang paling kecil sampai paling teruk, tapi aku still kasi maaf. tapi macam sia2. kau bukan sedar kan apa kau buat? GROW UPPPPPPPP!! layan budak2 macam kau, bikin aku sakit hati lagi lebih. bagus jangan layan.

Monday, March 28, 2011

B,O.S.A.N

Adui. tiap malam pun bosan. sampai habis idea sudah apa mau bikin. T_T

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

M A R A H

Lain orang, lain cara tunjukkan kemarahan dorang. kalau aku, yang panas baran ni, bila marah memang siaplah semua orang kena tempias marah tu. tapi aku marah kejap ja nda lama.

kalau aku memaki, menghampas2 barang, membebel & cakap kasar, itu marah tahap sederhana.

kalau masih boleh ketawa2 tapi marah2, itu tahap paling kecil lah marah tu.

tapiiiiiiii..kalau aku diam, tapi sebenarnya dalam keadaan marah, itulah masanya bila aku sangattttttttttttttttttttttttttttt marahhhhhhhhh. hahaha. aku nda bercakap bila terlalu marah sebab aku pandai nangis. so I better shut my mouth, calm myself.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

tinggal kenangan.

damn! I accidentally deleted ALL text messages from my boyfriend! I kept those messages for more than a yearrrrrrrr. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. nda suka. T_T

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Chris Medina

I respect this man. why? watch this & you'll understand.



berapa banyak orang yg sanggup berkorban macam dia? =)

"what kind of guy would i be if i walked out when she needed me the most!" ~Chris Medina

If I were him, I would do the same. susah & senang bersama. kan.. God bless him.

Monday, February 21, 2011

takut

lama sudah aku nda rasa takut macam semalam. dulu aku pernah beberapa kali susah tidur & terbangun tiba2 terus lemas. rasa macam nyawa mau kena cabut. panik. terus macam mau rebah. aku 1st kena begini masa study di Poli dulu. gara2 roommate aku berteriak masa tidur. aku ingat dia kena histeria. aku pun ikut teriak & takut nda pasal2. start sana aku pandai terbangun terkejut masa tidur. my dad cakap aku rasa yg macam mau kena cabut nyawa tu sebab mata aku terbuka, otak aku bangun, tapi sel2 lain masih tidur. bila aku paksa bangun, itu yg buat rasa lemas.

after sooooo many yearssssssss...tiba2 aku kena balik semalam. aku nda tau macam mana aku boleh terkejut begitu. I cried. sebab aku betul2 ingat sampai masa sudah mau pergi. haha sekarang baru rasa lucu. tapi semalam lah aku betul2 rasa macam tiada siapa2 yg ada untuk aku bila aku perlu dorang. aku nda pernah rasa yg aku betul2 perlu mau ada kawan macam semalam. I needed to talk to someone last night. satu orang ja dalam kepala aku. but unfortunately, I couldn't reach him. aku call mau berbelas kali. aku nda pernah call orang sampai begitu banyak. menangis2 lagi tu. haha. betul2 aku takutttttttt semalam. balik2 aku mengucap. balik2 aku baca ayat kursi. last2 aku penat, tertidur sendiri.

aku nda tau kenapa Allah mau aku rasa macam semalam. yg bila aku perlu orang betul2 aku macam tiada siapa2. Dia sengaja mau bagi aku rasa macam mana kalau aku betul2 hidup satu orang & tiada siapa2 lagi yg ada untuk aku. and I always thought I could live alone in this world.I was wrong. I can't live alone. tolonglah jangan kasi aku rasa macam semalam lagi. effect dia sampai sekarang ok. sampai sekarang masih takut. nampak sangat aku nda kuat iman kan. takut mati. hmm

aku rasa kosong oo. ='( cousin yg aku rapat pun pindah rumah. my rabbit died yesterday. boyfriend pun outstation. eeee nda siokkkkk.

Monday, February 14, 2011

valentine's day

haha teringat masa dulu2 time sekolah..=) asal ja valentine's day, mesti ada yg jual2 coklat & bunga. masa tu lah sibuk semua orang diam2 bagi bunga sama crush dorang. jadi kunun dulu aku selalu tunggu tu kalau2 ada yg bagi bunga ka coklat ka. tapi hampa. haha! sampai lah form 4, ada kawan baik aku bagi. lelaki. itupun aku yg minta. wahahaha.

what's so special about valentine's day? hari2 biasa pun boleh celebrate maa...nda perlu mau ada reason kenapa mau kasi gift sama partner kita. tiada reason kenapa tiba2 mau pergi candle light dinner ka buat benda2 romantic ka.

tapi aku mana pandai benda semua tu. yg mau pergi candle light dinner, kena kasi surprise bunga ka gift ka. sebab nda biasa. dan mungkin sebab nda pernah kena buat begitu. seingat aku lah, aku lansunggg nda pernah celebrate valentine. selalu time tu aku tiada boyfriend and tiada yg mengajak. andu bah.haha! anniversary pun nda pernah rasa oo. =( ya..nda pernah celebrate anniversary..sebab relationship aku nda pernah yg sampai setahun. pernah lah dua tahun, tapi itu on and off. tiada pun tarikh declare. sungguh menyedihkan. aku bukan jenis suka tukar boyfriend. tapi selalu dapat boyfriend nda guna, mau buat cemana juga kan.

banyak cara mau appreciate partner kita..not just by giving them flowers, gifts, attention and love for one special day. it's the endless love that counts. =)

Sunday, February 13, 2011

cutiiiiiiiiii

ah. lusa cuti. esok patutnya kerja macam biasa tapi lusa cuti, alang2 kasi cuti ja la bisuk. haha! jangan jealous orang yg kerja tu yer.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

tidak feminine??

ehm..mentang2 I like black..barang aku/baju mostly pun black. tidak feminine? haha iya. kurang feminine lah sikit. I hate pink. I love black and gray. tapi aku suka warna putih juga pun. merah pun. dan purple! =D tapi hitam juga lah palinggggg suka. pasal hati hitam? haha!

Sunday, January 30, 2011

obsessed.


bila perasaan mau memiliki someone tu kuat, that is not love. that is obsessed. I want you because I love you. cinta tidak semestinya memiliki. kadang2 lain di mata, lain dihati. kita boleh miliki orang tu, tapi bolehkah miliki hati dia? =) I want your heart. your love. if possible, I want you.

get rid of..

yes I need to get rid of my 'I'll do whatever it takes to get what I want' attitude. T_T kalau saya mau tu, saya mauuuu lah tu. I'll never stop until I get it. actually lama sudah nda begini. but lately kan, aku notice apa yg aku mau, aku betul2 akan dapatkan. lamaaaaa sudah nda begini. I can't control sudah. I can't handle myself. haish. 'DEGIL' is the right word that describes me.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

scary.

hahaha! I feel rejuvenated oo. I don't even know why! mungkin pasal masuk tahun baru? 2011? 11 has always been my lucky number! mood selalu baikkkk punya even though kerja bikin stress! and paling best, semua benda bikin aku happy! ada juga lah yg bikin sakit hati (it's normal I guess..bila partner cerita benda2 bikin jealous sikit, of course sakit hati sikit kan. lepas tu ok balik lah), tapi aku lupa tu lepas beberapa saat & nda peduli sudah. lonely pun nda terasa, my boyfriend was away this weekend pun aku nda berapa terasa. busy dengan hal sendiri. went shopping! ntah. pelik lah. jangan ja ini tanda2 buang tebiat (ajal sudah dekat). tapi..kalaupun ajal sudah mau sampai, there,s nothing I can do to stop it.

I get excited about small things..and apparently it scares me. macam ambil drugs. penuh semangat jer. hahaha scaryyyy okay! hmmmmmmm hmmmmmmmm

oh ya. aku punya jealousy level pun agak membimbangkan. dulu aku nda peduli, nda pandai jealous, sekarang pandai sudah oo. tidak juga teruk tapi kalau boleh aku nda mau begituuuu. nda siokkkkk. aku nda sukaaaaaa. jadi aku perlu lebih positif & menerima seadanya. kalau sudah perangai partner memang begitu, kita harus sedia maklum & terima seadanya & banyak bersabar lah kan. kalau difikirkan, sama ja pun perangai kami. cuma aku nda sedar aku pun begitu. aku pun nda tau kan apa dia rasa bila aku cerita2 pasal lelaki itu, lelaki ini kacau ka, orang itu begitu orang itu begini.

kesimpulan, all relationships pun kena banyak bersabar & terima seadanya. that's why aku bagi dia space, dia sibuk aku nda kacau & pandai2 bawa diri. nda buli terlampau clingy juga. nda juga buli dependent sikit2 mesti mau ada dia baru boleh buat itu ini. so far nda juga semua aku buat mesti ada dia. mostly pun sendiri. aku nda payah berteman mau buat apa2 pun aku okay ja. simpan lah aku di mana2, I can survive. biasa sudah hidup sendiri lor. =)

Sunday, January 16, 2011

room makeover!

hehe! hampir siap. aku kasi keluar sofa, study table & bed-side tables. now cuma ada dressing table, bed, & almari jer. astaga. kosong bilik! tinggal tukar lampu, tukar lantai, beli sofa baru, pasang langsir baru, and aku mau tukar kipas! pakai yg guna remote! haha! since kipas aku tu tiada fungsi, I mean selalu pasang pun paling slow punya, sejukkk ba sini. so what's the point of installing air-cond in my room? bukan pakai pun.

kalau boleh mau buat sekaligus terus siap semua, but my dad bising2. "buat sikit-sikit lah bah!" aku pun berfikir, ya kan. kenapa mau kelam kabut bikin sekaligus. then sendiri jawab balik, kenapa mau tangguh2. aku nda suka tangguh, nanti aku pandai nda mau buat terus tu. so sementara masih mau, bagus bikin kasi habis terus! after years of planning..baru lah terbuat last month. hmm..hmm..

Monday, January 10, 2011

T_T

maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu.
bagaimana ku nanti..bila kau tak di sisi..
yang ku ada hanya kamu saja..


Faizal Tahirrrrrrr........T_T best gila performance dia di AJL 25.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

welcome 2011!!

it's my year!! my favourite number 11! hehe! new year's eve was fun..sikit lah. macam bukan new year ja. since every year pun buat bbq & family gathering, why not celebrate new year's eve somewhere else next time?