eleven things I love about you. =)

these 11 things are what I've learned to be the reasons why I fell in love with you, & will definitely make me fall for you over again.

1. you are 'pelik'. =P
   
2. you know me more than I know myself.
   
3. caring, loving, understanding. =)
4. appreciative. you always appreciate things I do for you.
   
5. SWEET and romantic.
   
6. you always notice when I'm not ok & ask "kau ok?". and I always lie. "ok bah".haha! I don't want you to worry because I'll be fine, eventually.
   
7. you are a very good advisor + listener. my guardian angel to be exact. =P
   
8. you have a sharp mind.
9. you remind me of the man I've been living with for 24++ years; my idol,my dad. =)
10. you are GETZ! and bikin panas! haha sometimes you make me jealous, (unnoticeable).but at least you show your true colours. I really appreciate it. "I see your true colors and that's why I love you"
11. I love you, just the way you are. thanks for being you! xoxo

love it!

only girl

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands, like I'm the only one who knows your heart, only one...

I've made up my mind!

I'm going to take MBA next July! here's the plan. I will find a job & work for two months (nov & dec). I don't care what job, as long as my time is not wasted by doing nothing at home. so I will start tutoring again in January, until April. in the mean time, I will apply for scholarship. if I can't get scholarship, I will apply for PTPTN. my decision is final. who's with me??? haha I'm tired of thinking about what I want, what everybody wants. I think that's the reason why I've never had my own decision. people decide for me. I can't decide what I want to do, that's why my dad decides for me. even though I always complain that I don't like when people decide for me, but now, I want people to decide for me. I don't think I can make my own decision.

ishhh...

slow drivers driving in the right lane really get on my nerves! please lah..adoi. I'm trying so hard to control my temper, but you guys make it worse! please....pleaseeeee...if you think, NO, if you know that you are one of those slow drivers, and would love to drive in the right lane, forget it. haha! just drive in the left lane lah okay? if you really wanna try to drive in the right lane, please do so after 12 midnight. you can even drive in both lanes juga if you want. no problem. haha but please, siang2 buta, DON'T. bikin lambat semua orang. understand? thank you!

future

I give myself a chance to find any promising job until March. If I can't find any, I will apply for scholarship & take Master's Degree next July. jadi lecturer!! haha! hmm...

what's next?

I'm turning 25, but still unemployed. haha! currently working part time, but my contract ends next month. I will be a housewife, again! best apa jadi housewife, though it's boring. I've just graduated, and I am NOW entering 'unemployed phase'. my next step is to find a full time job! lepas tu baru boleh fikir pasal benda lain. kahwin etc. haha! my target is to get a job in December! insyaAllah kalau ada rezeki kan! wish me luck!

*wink*

The more I know you, the more I want you to stay.

orang yang salah?

* terjumpa post ni di wall kawan. I've only met the wrong guys all my life. I just hope the guy I'm with is the right guy.amin~*

1. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya apabila kita bertemu jodoh yg sebenar,masih ada rasa syukur kita pada ketentuanNYA.

2. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat menjadi penilai yg baik.

3. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa kita hanyalah makhluk yg sentiasa mengharapkan pertolongan ALLAH.

4. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat KASIH SAYANG YANG TERBAIK,KHAS UNTUK DIRI KITA.

5. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa ALLAH MAHA PEMURAH & PENYAYANG kerana mengingatkan kita bahawa dia bukanlah pilihan yg hebat untuk kita dan kehidupan kita pada masa depan.

6. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat mengutip pengalaman yg tak semua orang berpeluang untuk mengalaminya.

7. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita jadi MANUSIA YG HEBAT JIWANYA.

8. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita lebih faham bahawa CINTA YG TERBAIK HANYA ADA BERSAMA ALLAH.

9. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita LEBIH MENGENALI KEHIDUPAN YG TAK SELAMANYA KEKAL.

Wahai sahabat yg kecewa,menderita dan sengsara kerana cinta, fahamilah bahawa kehidupan kita makin sampai ke penghujungnya.

Hari esok pun kita sendiri tak pasti samada menjadi milik kita. Gapailah keredhaan ALLAH dengan melaksanakan suruhanNYA, dan meninggalkan laranganNYA.

PERCAYALAH sesungguhnya ALLAH malu untuk menolak permintaan hambaNYA yg menadah tangan meminta dengan penuh pengharapan HANYA kepadaNYA..

for the rest of my life..

aku tau sudah lagu apa mau pakai buat background video kahwin nanti.haha! love this song!

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I'm here with you
Now let me let you know
You've opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
And there's a couple words I want to say

For the rest of my life
I'll be with you
I'll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I'll be loving you.

For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I'll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I'll be there for you

fill in the blank

selama aku,
masih bisa bernafas,
masih sanggup berjalan,
ku kan selalu m______ mu.

yes, no, or maybe?

Since I always don't know what I want, I have no choice but to obey what they have planned. it's either 'with' or 'without' my knowledge, I can't say NO. if I say no, I get hurt. syukurlah aku tahu SIAPA aku mahu, or else....they would probably choose a guy for me, and I would definitely have to say yes. so there will be NO or MAYBE, it's always YES.

I desperately need......

...to go on holiday!! I've always wanted to go on holiday by myself. wahhh..punya best tu! 1 week ka..2 weeks ka. mau pergi tempat yang tiada kawan situ, tiada family situ. all alone. boleh survive kah aku tu?

tentang kamu..

ku tak bisa menebak
ku tak bisa membaca
tentang kamu
tentang kamu

kau buat ku bertanya
slalu dalam hatiku
tentang kamu
tentang kamu

bagaimana bila akhirnya ku cinta kau
dari kekuranganmu hingga lebihmu
bagaimana bila semua benar terjadi
mungkin inilah yang terindah

begitu banyak bintang
sperti pertanyaanku
tentang kamu
tentang kamu

e s t u p i d o

a friend told me this, "I wish I could just disappear from this world, forever." aku rasa dia bodoh. but now I'm thinking, "if only I could just disappear....or never exist.." who's stupid now?

T_T

susah jadi perempuan.